DOWN.

Ya Allah.

I will never get mad each time you plan for me to fall sick.

But I only ask for you to forgive my sins... That you wash away my sins as big as the ocean or bigger than the universe when you later take away my sickness.

Allahumma Ameen!

SCREAMS.

I don't feel like crying.

I just want to cry.

URGE.

I wished to be able to talk to you. Badly.

But either our paths don't cross. 

Or Allah gave me low courage to walk up to you or even look up to you for an acknowledgement.

I wished to be your friend. Badly.

But either you don't want to.

Or Allah does not plan for us to be friends.

I wished to see you. Badly.

But either our work/school shifts doesn't clash.

Or when I do, it's just a hallucination of you. (Or maybe it was you?)

I know. I have a crush. Every right reasons for me to admire someone, there is still half of me holding strong to my low self-esteem.

But for every right reasons that I don't want to approach him, talk to him, look and smile at him, I really do pray that Allah will reward me for it. 

May Allah grant me a pious, righteous, and patient (lol) husband for me. Allahumma Ameen!

M.

WHAT I GADDA DO

I love my parents.

But sometimes............

No. I've to say no to shaytaan no matter how much they nagged and all.

RANDOM.

Sometimes I wish I could just disappear. Even just for a day or two.

But He knows that's not what I really want and that my family couldn't handle it if it were to happen.

OLD FRIEND.

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatu.

No doubt I miss someone who used to be a special friend. I'm not sure if he is still special to me or am I to him. But I am very sure that us, drifting apart is Allah's plan and I trust His plan much more than I ever do trust myself. 

In fact, I don't even trust myself sometimes. Tough life. Anyways, May Allah watch over him and ease his affairs. 

I am very much contented with how my life is currently is. Alhamdulillah. ☺️ Okay gotta go back to memorizing! First paper tomorrow at 2.15pm!

May Allah ease my affairs and make it easy for me in this tough and rough period! Allahumma Ameen!

Wassalam,

Marlie 💋

WHO'S THAT GUY

Who's that guy???

I woke up from my sleep wondering who that guy I just dreamt of.

It felt like somebody I know 

But I just couldn't remember who

At the same time

It felt like a stranger

Ever felt that way before?

Did it ever happened to you too?

We were like a couple - felt like almost we were married

Getting in the car after getting out takeouts

And then

That was it