BLESSINGS.

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatu.

They said that good dreams are from Him. While bad dreams and/or nightmares are from the evil (shaytaan).

So I dreamt of R (which I am partially unsure of whether or not this is a good dream or bad, but definitely not a nightmare lol) that we got married..................

Hard to believe but yupp it was just a dream, and it did not stop there. The next chapter of our lives was that I got pregnant our of the blue (and the way I found out that I was pregnant was extremely cute).

I was in the loo when suddenly my belly hurts (felt like as if there was a small leg kicking from the inside)... I looked up into the mirror and was in for a shock! My belly was huge - pointing outwards - and I was wearing a cropped top so I can really see my huge belly. 

The cute part to all this excitement was that when I looked away from the mirror and straight down to my belly, I SAW A SMALL CUTE FOOTPRINT ON THE TOP OF MY BELLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

And that was how I found out I was pregnant!!!!! HAHAHAHAH Ya Allah I know this is the funniest way to find out one is pregnant especially after all the huge belly and everything?? :')

Of course, despite being a dream, I also want it to be real, I want to have my own child/children one day. Just that I leave it to Allah to plan my journey with the mystery man who's gonna be the father to my child. Can be R, can also not be R.

Wassalam,

Marlie xo.

DOWN.

Ya Allah.

I will never get mad each time you plan for me to fall sick.

But I only ask for you to forgive my sins... That you wash away my sins as big as the ocean or bigger than the universe when you later take away my sickness.

Allahumma Ameen!

SCREAMS.

I don't feel like crying.

I just want to cry.

URGE.

I wished to be able to talk to you. Badly.

But either our paths don't cross. 

Or Allah gave me low courage to walk up to you or even look up to you for an acknowledgement.

I wished to be your friend. Badly.

But either you don't want to.

Or Allah does not plan for us to be friends.

I wished to see you. Badly.

But either our work/school shifts doesn't clash.

Or when I do, it's just a hallucination of you. (Or maybe it was you?)

I know. I have a crush. Every right reasons for me to admire someone, there is still half of me holding strong to my low self-esteem.

But for every right reasons that I don't want to approach him, talk to him, look and smile at him, I really do pray that Allah will reward me for it. 

May Allah grant me a pious, righteous, and patient (lol) husband for me. Allahumma Ameen!

M.

WHAT I GADDA DO

I love my parents.

But sometimes............

No. I've to say no to shaytaan no matter how much they nagged and all.

RANDOM.

Sometimes I wish I could just disappear. Even just for a day or two.

But He knows that's not what I really want and that my family couldn't handle it if it were to happen.

OLD FRIEND.

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatu.

No doubt I miss someone who used to be a special friend. I'm not sure if he is still special to me or am I to him. But I am very sure that us, drifting apart is Allah's plan and I trust His plan much more than I ever do trust myself. 

In fact, I don't even trust myself sometimes. Tough life. Anyways, May Allah watch over him and ease his affairs. 

I am very much contented with how my life is currently is. Alhamdulillah. ☺️ Okay gotta go back to memorizing! First paper tomorrow at 2.15pm!

May Allah ease my affairs and make it easy for me in this tough and rough period! Allahumma Ameen!

Wassalam,

Marlie 💋