SATURDAY SUNDAY.

First day of being a so-called "Waitress" over at Suntec later in the evening. Not so nervous, just worried if part of my uniform are not acceptable. I just hope everything's okay with them. Anyways, work ends at 11pm today plus minus, and I only have a few hours of sleep once I reach home. I will be heading to Batam first thing tomorrow morning for a one-day trip with family, aunt and uncle.

Anyways, Im outta cash to go for more practicals. So sad :( Dragging my driving is not what I was expecting. :((( Sigh. Gonna do a bit of my school assignment now. Chaoz <3

SCHOOL.

It's Monday and I'm back to school mode. NOT. -_- I'm not ready for school :( Okay actually I am, just that I don't wanna go to school :(((( Of course, school has lots of fun stuff that happens everyday to look forward to. Meeting her girls, seeing all kinds of fashions the students wear every single day and stuff. :))

I just hope that I will do a lot better than the previous semester. Not only the previous semester. The past semesters as well. Insya'Allah, amin.

I'm gonna get ready now, chaoz! <3

LONELY.

I'm not complaining of being lonely. Certainly, not. There are many other unfortunate kids without family and friends out there :( So I'm pretty much blessed with so many loved ones around me. Its just that, Dad's busy with driving passengers around to earn the food on our table everyday :((( Sofie has now drifted apart from the family. Well, emotionally. Linn's been giving empty promises and her laziness is just not helping much around the house. Shasha's mood been on and off too cause there's nothing much to do around the house. I'm just upset :'(( Sometimes I feel like crying, and I would stop and think, why would I wanna cry? Its not like I dont have anyone left.

Hmmmmmm :/ Its not about appreciating how much you have a family around you. Sometimes you just miss the old times much that you din realise how everything changed, and has become alien to you. Until one day I had nothing to do, and everything just came to a stop and make me realise how much, today is different from 10 years ago.

:((((

Honestly, being a kid is the easiest when you know lesser, feels contented with everything, doesnt know right from wrong and vice versa, and can easily be a happy kid when given a lollipop .. :'((

Lately, I've been feeling sucky-ish. I'm not even sure if there is such a word, but I'm not gonna find out. I feel like I can't make up my mind and decide what I want anymore. One moment I wanna get my license. Another second, I was regretting being enrolled. One moment I was eager to get married and have kids of my own. The next I was afraid of the thought of a baby. One moment I wanted to repent fully. Next moment, I am just not ready. One moment I was daydreaming about my future, what I would be, how I would become. The next moment I was all afraid. Incredibly afraid, of everything. Which I have no idea what "everything" am I referring to. 

You see, dear readers, not everyone gets what they want. You will have difficulties choosing between choices. But look on the bright side, its more frightening if you don't have any choices at all.  So I'm gonna take things slow, and take my time to think wisely for how I would want my future/life to turns out like. Even when I know I cannot control how it turns out :) Because we choose, but Allah decides :)))) Happy positive-thinking, dear readers :D

STUDENT. SCHOOL. STARVING.

My cute little Fatin. My Primary 3 student :) She's smart, speaking, and funny too :D Anws, now I have another student, a friend's Primary 2 sister :))) I'm glad I have a pretty occupy holiday this vacation :)

Talking about vacation, I think I'm considering an after-school job. But I have no idea where to search for. Google is not helping, at all :( Sometimes, I wish that money could just fall from the sky :/ I mean, human beings wouldnt have starved, or needa go to work .. 

School's starting. *Yaaayy!* -_- My Tuesdays to Fridays starts at 8am. Freakin' 8am! :( Damn early! And I only have how many practicals? 1. Double -_- Im gonna go now. Im starving. Chaoz.

TWEET TWEET.

I've no intention to blog whatsoever but I'm freaking upset after discovering my twitter account has been hacked :( I. Am. Damn. Upset. About. This. So far, advise were to create a new account. But I just treasure that account no idea why :(


I should most prolly get over this by next month so fret not >:( anyways, the thought of schooling reopening in 2 weeks time is somehow frightening but it's sucha long time to wait for sch to start. But at the same time, I just don't want sch to start :( haha contradicting, I know I'm being fickle-minded. Always. :/


I can't wait for Friday to come :) I'm glad that there'll be something to look forward to for my Fridays and Saturdays now :D Swimming! Hehe :DD alright, gonna have tuition in a while. Next time!

THERE'S ALWAYS A FIRST TO EVERYTHING.

Same goes for this very entry :) Hello readers. I'm Marlie. I've been inspired to create a new personal blog by a number of reasons. Sensitivity, hesitation, and definitely trying to improve my English without human beings who knows me, knows about this :O Hahaha. Okay I was just kidding.


Anyways, I'm not gonna rant much on my first entry. I've just got a few things to say about my awesome plus not-so-awesome day today. Contradicting much? I know -_- Hmmm, lets just say I've had a great time in the earlier part of the day with the girls <3 And a bad time on my way home :/ So that sums up everything.


Promise to do a proper update next time. Chaoz.