RACE.

I don't care whether or not others know that I'm mix of Indon-Chilay. I don't look like one and I am still happy with what Allah has given/presented me with. I don't look beautiful/pretty, but I am thankful that he let me be born with normal face and normal condition :) Alhamdulillah.

But what others really doesn't know is that .. My parents both have Chinese-Malay-Indonesian blood individually. Sometimes I admire my siblings' features :) They are way more prettier than me (not seeking attention, neither am i asking for sympathy.. Im just saying!) in a lot of ways. But I never had a sense of jealousy over those things cause they are afterall my blood sister and I am proud to call them mine ;D

The only thing I couldn't understand is that, none of us has mom's skinny genes when she was our age! She was (not super, but sexy) skinny! And look at all of us 4 sisters now -_- Hahahaha, we totally don't have dad's genes when he was our age as well! They both looked so good and fit together! Skinny and fit! (Y)(Y) Now, mom has gained weight ever since she's carrying Sofie (that's my eldest sister :D) and so does dad!

But mom is not so overweight now :DD She's average, maybe a little overweight but not the extreme kind :) Dad used to be extremely overweight! He's now plain overweight :D haha. And I used to care so much about my weight. I look around and girls skinnier than me kept complaining how fat they were -_- My ears were hurting I tell you! It was friggin' annoying! So I was upset that some of my friends even could hurt me unknowingly when they made those remarks. 

Ever since then I kept wanting to loss weight! Hahaha :D I tried every ways I could .. Starving myself, jogging, exercising, fasting! Hahaha :) But then, I came across this thought, that when I wanna find the love of my life, I wouldn't wanna be judge by my weight. He has to be looking into my heart and personality! :))) Hehe. So since then I couldn't careless about my weight, but I still do have to maintain my diet cause of my health condition. Other than that, I wouldn't resist eating at my heart's desire ^^

M.