DEPRESSED.

I feel like I can cry anytime. But it's nothing to be worried about. I'm just oversensitive :( And I hate it. Lucy said I will not forget them, when I told him no one knows because anyone can change overnight :( But thinking about them, thinking about Wuhan, everything there .. Makes me a person with depression now, I swear. Always feeling sad and missing Wuhan badly :'(

I am now avoiding MSN as trying not to chat with the Wuhan guai zi! :( I know I'm bad, but that's the only way to prevent myself from being depressed </3 I don't know if I'm being cruel to them, or being cruel to myself! Every time I see my MSN auto signed in, I will feel so sad that I had to close it :( Not wanting to see my Wuhan guai zi online. I just feel like I want to cry. I have no idea why is the trip end up putting a huge impact on me, on my life now. I want to go back. I'm dying to go back. It's not the people. It's not the food. And it's definitely not the school. It's somehow the bonds, the life, the easy and relaxed life there :'(

No matter how much I know I want to go back, I know I will forget about this plan in the future and think it was childish and was a decision at a moment of sadness :( I hate it. I hate it when I think like this. When I think of how I will see it in the future :( I MISS LUCY. I MISS LILY. I MISS WUHAN. I WANT TO GO BACK. IF ONLY THEY KNEW HOW MUCH I MISS BEING WITH THEIR PRESENCE. I MISS THE 5 WEEKS I SPENT THERE.

:'(