SYUUE TURNED NINETEENTH.

Hey everyone! :D Haven't been updating for quite sometime cause the past few months have been a hectic one for me. This coming weeks are gonna be much more hectic with the preparations of assignments, presentations, and exams! Gosh I don't even know how to describe this feeling I'm feeling right now. It's gonna be my last (Insyallah) semester studying & sitting for exams. Next semester, will be my internship to end the journey in Poly life. )': It's just too fast. But I'm looking forward to moving on :)

Alright, it's just a quick update. Needa get my tutorials going, going and gone man :D Till next time, stay tuned! ;)

- M.

WELCOMING JULY.

Haaaaaaaaaii everybodeehh :D I'm back! MIA foor almost 2 months. Almost forget about this blog! <3 So sorry bloggy, will make it up to you with more posts and updates in future! :))) Meanwhile, I needa get my thoughts straight. Stay tuned for more updates alright! ;)

COUSIN & SISTER.

TROLLING.

 Dropby Facebook for more :) This is just a sneak preview ;) 

FACEBOOK NOTE.

1. Name : MARLIE.

2. Nickname : Nana, Marlie, Kak Nana, M.

3. Birthday : 31st March.

4. Male or Female : F.

5. Primary school : Greenridge.

6. Elementary school : Fajar.

7. High school : Ngee Ann Poly

8. Hair color : Black.

9. Tall or short : Shorty :(

12. Phone or camera : Phone.

13. Health freak : To certain extent. Yes.

14. Orange or apple : Apply :)

15. Do u have a crush on someone : No.

16. Eat or drink : Drink.

17. Piercings : All on ears, and only ears.

18. Pepsi or coke : Dislikes gassy drink. But if I had to, Pepsi.

HAVE U EVER?

19.Been in an airplane : Yes.

20.Been in a relationship : No.

21.Been in a car accident : Alhamdulillah, no.

22.Been in a fist fight : No.

 23.First Piercing : Ear.

24.First Best friend : And LAST, and ONLY --> Nur Hanim Harris.

25.First Award : Art Contest in Primary School.

26.First crush : Can't really remember his name but it was as far as kindergarten, lol.

27.First word : Will ask my mom and get back to you again.

29.Last friend you talked to in facebook: Specifically cousin. If friend was HANIM :)

30.Last friend you texted : Asidah.

31.Last friend you watched a movie with: Syu and Hanim, lol that was long ago.

32.Last food I ate: Spicy Seaweed!

33.Last movie you watched : Eat Love Pray.

34. Last song you listened to: Geek In The Pink!

35. Last thing you bought: Spicy McNuggets which was .. can't really rmmbr when! 

36. Last person you hugged : HANIM :)

FAVES :

37. Food : Prata, Mee Siam! Anything spicy!

38. Drinks : Ribena, Yakult, Green Tea, Hot Tea, Milk.

39. Bottoms: Jeans. Flabby pants.

40. Flower:  Tulips :)

41. Animal: CATS <3

42. Colors: Green.

43. Movie: Despicable Me.

44. Subjects: Mathematics.

HAVE YOU EVER... 

45. [  ] Fallen in love with someone 

46. [  ] Celebrated Halloween

47. [  ] Had your heart broken

48. [x] Went over the minutes/texts on your cell phone

49. [x] Wanted to smack someone upside the head

51. [  ] Eaten a whole standard sized pizza

52. [x] Tried to do something, but couldn't succeed

53. [x] Did something I regret

54. [x] Broke a promise

55. [x] Hid a secret

56. [x] Pretended to be happy

57. [x] Met someone who changed your life

58. [x] Pretended to be sick

59. [x] Left the country

60. [x] Tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it

61. [x] Cried over the silliest thing

62. [x] Ran 5 miles.

63. [x] Went to the beach with your best friends

64. [x] Got into an argument with your friends

65. [x] Hated someone

66. [x] Stayed single for a whole year(& counting)

CURRENTLY:

67. Eating: Nothing.

68. Drinking : Plain water.

69. Listening to : Geek In The Pink, lol!

70: Thinking about: Someone, (shit!).

71. Plans for today: Survive the day and move on to the next.

72. Waiting for: Tomorrow to come.

YOUR FUTURE :

73. Want kids : Lots of 'em.

74. Want to get married : Yes :) 

75. Careers in mind : Didn't think into depth.

WHICH IS BETTER IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?:

76. Lips or eyes : Eyes

77. Shorter or taller : Taller loh.

78. Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous is better even tho both would be pleasure :)

79. Nice stomach or nice arms : Arms would be better even tho both would be pleasure :D

81. Hook-up or relationship : Relationship.

82. Looks or personality: Personality.

HAVE YOU EVER:

83. Lost glasses/contacts: Yes.

84. Snuck out of a house: No.

85. Held a gun/knife for self defense : No.

86. Kissed someone before : No.

87. Broke someone's heart : I don't think so?

88. Been in love: No.

89. Cried when someone died: :( Duuh.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

90. Yourself: Most of the time, no.

91. Miracles : No.

92. Love at first sight: I'm not sure? Maybe.

93. Heaven: Yes.

94. Santa claus: No.

TRUTHFULLY:

97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? Yes.

98. Do you know who your real friends are? Yes :)

99. Do you believe in God? Yes.

100. Would you change something in your life? No.

*Been tagged by Tao Guang :) Thought I could have a little update with my blog.

RANDOM.

This was taken weeks before I left for Wuhan. Lol. I was bored at home and I tried on some of mine and Mom's make-up ^_^ Just playing around, dollying up. But of course, I don't dare such thick make-up when I go out :P 

#1 - I will scare people away.

#2 - The scorching sun will melt my make up.

#3 - Putting on this thick is a waste of money and make-up!

:) 

Anyways, I am still not fully recovered after 5 days under medication :( I woke up at 4 this morning cause I was sweating (when the friggin' fan was directed directly in front of me and at it's maximum already!) -_- I was sweating as if I am in the showers, bathing. Why must my fever not subsides after almost a week :(

Sighs. Weather, weather.

GROWTH.

EACH TEAR.

My dearest Pang Kai Xin. (This is especially for you.)

I don't know how else can I comfort you without being able to be there for you and with you. I feel bad. I feel so bad for being at home knowing that you need your friends the most now. I hope Julia is able to make you feel better cause I know you need her the most. But know that no matter what, you have all these friends listening to you, lending you our shoulders, every time you need them. I am so sorry for not being able to rush down to school as much as I want to, to be there and listen to you. I am weak, and I had my medicines.

Just so you know that it pains my heart this morning knowing that you cried, babygirl </3 It really felt that I broke down after years of not feeling this way. It hurts to know that my friend is at her lowest and yet I can't do anything, can't even be there for her. I really hope you forgive me and be calm, partner. I know you're strong. Cause you really are. And know that this is not the end. Not the end of the world, not the end of EVERYTHING. Cry as much as you want, don't let anyone stop you. Just make sure that you feel better afterwards. Feel good. 

Cause ..

In each tear 

there's a lesson,

Makes you wiser than before, 

Makes you stronger than you know.

I LOVE YOU <3 *HUGS*

XOXO, Marlie.

NEWBORN.

This is Qisthy Eva :D Raihan Izzati's newborn babygirl :) Happened to come across her newborn album in Facebook or else I wouldn't even know she had popped! :/ Anyways, CONGRATULATIONS my dear, hope you lead a blissful and happy new motherhood life with your babygirl, Eva <3 :) 

SHAVE IT OFF.

25th April 2011 - ProTrim Causeway Point with Momma.

Crazy and wild decision to shave off my right side. But I just had to try something different before deciding to really chop of my long hair :) So there.

XOXO, M.

UNDER THE WEIGHT.

I finally see something (or rather, see lesser :D)! I'm beginning to think that I've lost weight even though friends and family been trying to convince me that I actually did. But the thing is .. I did not feel or see the change :( Even now when I see the change, it's only a little change! I know it's still something .. But I don't want people to get the idea that I'm dieting to lose some weight and be slimmer. I was actually under the doct's observation for quite some time few years back due to my health condition and I had to stick on a certain diet :( It's definitely not because I wanna be slimmer and look beautiful.

I definitely dont care about looking good. I love to make up and dress up. But its because I wanna feel good. Not because I wanna impress anyone! Sigh, wait why do I even bother explaining again? I shouldn't bother with what people wanna say or think -_- Marlie. Calm down. And be yourself again. I know ever since I came back from Wuhan I'm a totally different person :( Shit. I hate this.

DEPRESSED.

I feel like I can cry anytime. But it's nothing to be worried about. I'm just oversensitive :( And I hate it. Lucy said I will not forget them, when I told him no one knows because anyone can change overnight :( But thinking about them, thinking about Wuhan, everything there .. Makes me a person with depression now, I swear. Always feeling sad and missing Wuhan badly :'(

I am now avoiding MSN as trying not to chat with the Wuhan guai zi! :( I know I'm bad, but that's the only way to prevent myself from being depressed </3 I don't know if I'm being cruel to them, or being cruel to myself! Every time I see my MSN auto signed in, I will feel so sad that I had to close it :( Not wanting to see my Wuhan guai zi online. I just feel like I want to cry. I have no idea why is the trip end up putting a huge impact on me, on my life now. I want to go back. I'm dying to go back. It's not the people. It's not the food. And it's definitely not the school. It's somehow the bonds, the life, the easy and relaxed life there :'(

No matter how much I know I want to go back, I know I will forget about this plan in the future and think it was childish and was a decision at a moment of sadness :( I hate it. I hate it when I think like this. When I think of how I will see it in the future :( I MISS LUCY. I MISS LILY. I MISS WUHAN. I WANT TO GO BACK. IF ONLY THEY KNEW HOW MUCH I MISS BEING WITH THEIR PRESENCE. I MISS THE 5 WEEKS I SPENT THERE.

:'(

WEE WEE & LOT 1.

DREAM.

First official outing with the girls once I got back from my trip was yesterday! We went wild over at Wild Wild Wet :D Didn't know it was fantabulous! :P Here are some sneak preview to the photos snapped. The rest can be found on Facebook! 

And I woke up this morning feeling sad and depressed :( I've been like this ever since I got back. And it's partially because I miss everything that was left in Wuhan :( The cheapness, the food, the environment, the weather, and most importantly, the friendship I built with the local buddies there :'( I miss them so much! I miss how I tried to understand what they were trying to tell me. I miss how I tried to speak mandarin to them. I miss how they were so protective and secure over me at the roads. I miss how I always buy 10 sticks of satays and go back to buy again up to 3 times in a day :( Can I fly back to Wuhan, please?

And I was upset partially because of the dream I had last night. I dreamt that Lily and Lucy was here in Singapore! That's a good thing, but it made me more impatient to see them here next year! :) Haha. Okay, I shall wait for their arrivals :D

WHEN MARLIE MEETS WUHAN.

Hello I'm back in Singapore! :D Safely landed in Singapore Changi Airport at around 7pm on Monday night :) Alhamdulillah. Read more on my Wuhan's Onsugar Blog here alright :D Or you could dropby my Facebook profile and look at all 6 Wuhan Albums :)

Enjoy!

HORUS SIBLINGS.

Had an awesome time with them yesterday :D So much pasta .. Opps! I meant, laughters ;D hehe, cause we had Pastamania for dinner. And Jem-itchy-hands had to unscrew the cover of sprinkler cheese and pour that whole lot into my pasta! :( Basket.

Anws .. Thank you guys, for being able to meet up for dinner before my departure! <3 Gonna miss each and everyone of you! Love you guys so much!

So yesterday officially marks the end of Year 2 at 11:00 am :) Was soooooo relieved! Lots and loootts of burden OFF meehhhh woooooooo! ;D And dearest Afiqah Jamal had already presented me with a super duper sumors early advance birthday gift! It's Ferrero Rocher, with a pair of earrings (heart shaped danglings) from Citigems! :DD Even if it wasn't from Citigems, I would have love it, Kak Iqah! My first thought when I saw the earrings, I am gonna wear it on my birthday! :D Hehe. But I'll be in Cheeeeenaa :'( Must Skype Skype Skype with all awesome peepos at night/midnight/morning! LOL.

 It's a relieve to know that not many Horus siblings and Olympus GLs going for this year's FOC. Most of us will either be away at China (but different places and different departure dates), or intern. :) Thought I was the only loner gonna have to skip this year's FOC :( Feeling so upset at the thought of it! Hahaha :))

My babygirl is sick :( I think she misses me too much laaaa even before my departure. This girl ahhh, 5 weeks I'm away then how? :( Take care of yourself, Nur Hanim Harris while I'm away! Drink lots of water, have plenty of rest! Lurbss chuuuuu <3

Gonna see if I missed out anything on my packing list or not. Sigh, I will miss you, Home.

DRIVER.

Can see my friggin' nervous expression? Hahaha, that was before I went over to BBDC to have my last practical session (my Traffic Police Practical Test!) :D Hahahaa, sempat! So the good news is .. I AM OFFICIALLY A DRIVER :D HEHE. I'M A GOOD AND SAFE DRIVER! hahahaa. If you don't bother wanna know my experience on that day, then don't bother reading what I'm gonna type below :)

So my warm up was set at 3:15pm before my test which was at 4:30pm on the 3rd March 2011, Thursday. Warm up was okay? I had a lot of questions in my mind to ask the instructor. When I was finally in the car, I only remember, "Since it's raining, do I have to switch on the lights?" -_- Confidence much? End of warm up, went straight up to waiting area and I was the first and earliest there. 3:50pm I was already seated :P Nervous much la horh.

Slowly the waiting area started to filled with all students taking their TP same slot as me. Since my IC was inserted FIRST into the box (and ended up being in the bottom) I was the last one called :( Hahaha made me scared only! But that's okay. Tester told me I'm gonna drive on test route 6. I was so confident it was at Teck Whye and everything until the tester said, "You wanna glance at the test route behind you before we go?" So I looked behind me at the map route and I was right, it really was at Teck Whye.

So when I get into the car, all set, (and as I depressed the brake pedal to change gear to D) tester asked, "did your Instructor ever told you this one in what position before you start engine?" Referring "this one" to handbrake! My handbrake was released before I started the engine and I din realised it! *#@$#&@*(!!) I was so scared if it was an immediate failure cause it was the first thing we pointed out even before I started my test journey! Hahaha :D

I told him it was already there when I got in, and my Instructors din say anything about it during all my practical sessions! Lol!? So he was like, "Okay, just to let you know before you on engine, your handbrake must always be up." Hahaha I knew that, just that I totally din realised it was down :S So circuit was so far okay. But I got lots of scolding :( I was thinking, doesnt testers supposed to fail you if you commit any wrongs, instead of opening their mouths and scold you? So I was so confident that I assumed I was immediately failed by the tester. I was upset :( But I kept my cool, and remember what Jacqueline told me :) Smile at the tester. He scolded me once because I din check behind while reversing for my Parallel Parking.

Second scolding was because he asked me to do another time (see, he asked me to do a second time! That was obvious that its an immediate failure isnt it!?) and I commit the same mistake! I din check behind while reversing into the lot! :( "Ahh see you din check behind again! Tsk" :'(((( *There goes my $160 and another $160 to book for another test!* Honestly, that was what I was thinking at that point of time! Other than that, circuit was perfectly fine.

Went out of BBDC, I was confident that he will ask me to turn right (cause Duuuuuuhhhhhh test route 6 is at Teck Whye!) but I was so scared he would scold me again that I waited for his instructions instead of signalling right. Guess what? Tester: "Okay turn left here." -_- I followed, I din dare to question him. LOL. (Throughout my whole journey on the public road, I was doing well and no U-turn was needed)! Got back into circuit, parked car, and went up to 2nd floor to wait for my tester with my results.

The rest who had their test same slot as me already having their results. The girl beside me even got a lot of naggings by her tester. (There was around 5 female at the waiting area before that). I was the only one waiting for my tester with my result (Forever alone). I looked down cause I wanted to cry, knowing that I failed :'(

Then something happened. Tester came and startled me with my results in his hands. "Okay .. You passed!" Omg I was friggin' happy that I grinned and smiled instantly. It was so obvious that my tester was, "You did very well you know! Just a few things like reversing just now ahh must check behind other than that, you are very patient, very good. Your driving skill is good as well, your circuit all okay. You even know how to react when you scanned for danger and you saw the cyclist. Very good, well done." Yes I was so happy that I remember his words :D Hahaha.


Now remember when I said there was around 5 females at the waiting area? When all the students who passed had to watch this graduate video, I was the only girl! ^^ LOL, the other 5 are guys! Hahaha, not being proud tho :) Just that the other females were much older than me! Hohooho, Alhamdulillah really.

Mistake: Failed to confirm safety.
Location: Parallel Parking.
Demerit Points: 4

No of repeat offend: 2

So my total demerit points is 8 :D Hehe! Well done Me! Congratulations Marlie! A super duper sumors early advance present to yourself! (L) Heheh.

I honestly can't do it without my parent's blessings and support, Jacqueline's warmth encouragement, Kaixin's as well and my gerlfys :) I'm sooooo happy! ALHAMDULILLAH.

UNSEEN WISHLIST.

Can't believe I'm finally boarding my first official flight :O It's very very near! I'm excited + nervous + scared + happy + mad happy + upset = mixed rojak feeling! :D Hahahaha!

Anyways, I know that I will be back 11 days after my birthday. But I truly hope that no one forgets to wish me a happy belated birthday once I land safely at Changi Airport :( It will be different receiving wishes at a foreign country than your very own hometown. And here's what I wanna get myself for my 19th birthday once I get home. I'm not expecting any of these from anyone, but if you know me and know where I live (like as if I got stalker -_- haha!) and you wanna get some of these things for me, WHY NOT! hahaha. Honestly not expecting ANYTHING, (:

Wishlist:

#1. Driver's license.

#2. Camera. (Polaroid!)

#3. Brand new bicycle.
#4. FOX Green Hoodie.

#5. Hazel-Brown Yearly Contact Lens.

#6. Volkswagen (L)

There's more actually, but these are what I'm totally falling in love with at the moment ^^ And I'm saving the best for the last ^^ Volkswagen! Gonna save my hard earn money when I work to reward myself with a Volksy-Sexy! Okay tomorrow's my driving, I'm nervous like one idiot. Tsk.