WHAT I GADDA DO

I love my parents.

But sometimes............

No. I've to say no to shaytaan no matter how much they nagged and all.

RANDOM.

Sometimes I wish I could just disappear. Even just for a day or two.

But He knows that's not what I really want and that my family couldn't handle it if it were to happen.

OLD FRIEND.

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatu.

No doubt I miss someone who used to be a special friend. I'm not sure if he is still special to me or am I to him. But I am very sure that us, drifting apart is Allah's plan and I trust His plan much more than I ever do trust myself. 

In fact, I don't even trust myself sometimes. Tough life. Anyways, May Allah watch over him and ease his affairs. 

I am very much contented with how my life is currently is. Alhamdulillah. ☺️ Okay gotta go back to memorizing! First paper tomorrow at 2.15pm!

May Allah ease my affairs and make it easy for me in this tough and rough period! Allahumma Ameen!

Wassalam,

Marlie 💋

WHO'S THAT GUY

Who's that guy???

I woke up from my sleep wondering who that guy I just dreamt of.

It felt like somebody I know 

But I just couldn't remember who

At the same time

It felt like a stranger

Ever felt that way before?

Did it ever happened to you too?

We were like a couple - felt like almost we were married

Getting in the car after getting out takeouts

And then

That was it

CROSS PATHS..... IN A TOILET.

Hehe Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatu..

As funny as my header of this entry sounds, that is how my soul sister and I crosses paths! 

Had an hour or two long catch up with EJ over at Fajar as she wanted to pass me her heavenly baked brownies! 😍 They really are heavenly brownies! All my sisters and my mom agrees! Hehe. Ma Shaa Allah. Jazakillahu Khairan dear, for the time and sweat in baking these!

We updated each other regarding our hijab journey so far, the supportive friends and family, the tests given by Allah, and everything that we could relate ourselves to! She's such a sweetheart.. Always advising me when I'm down, always thinking positive - which leads me to think positive as well. Allah let us cross path for a reason. May Allah guide us both and make it easy for us. Ameen!

So one of the topic during our conversation was how did we even acknowledged each other's presence? Lol. This is just plain boring and hilarious. I told her I remember I was in the girls toilet with Hanim during school hours in our Seconday School days. EJ walked in with kiDd went into individual cubicles (lol, yes had to be very specific as I can really recall our first time we verbally acknowledged each other..).

So when Hanim and I was done, we left the toilet but just before we left, I said "Bye kiDd". Hanim was like "then the other one?" So I took a few steps back and said "Bye EJ!" And she responded a "Bye!" back right from inside her cubicle! We were laughing over this during our meet up and it's all these little things that creates memories and laughters when we think back about our olden days again. Hehe.

Wassalam.

REWARD.

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatu. 

It's my off day today but I received a whatsapp text from Sophie...

Ma Shaa Allah.. May Allah reward her with good. Ameen! Totally gave me hope to attempt to guide them female colleagues to the right path. In Shaa Allah. May Allah give us guidance, protect us from hurt and harm, and ease all our affairs!

Allahuma Ameen!

Wassalam.

YET ANOTHER TEST.

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatu.

So the haze had gotten from bad to worst. Two days ago, when I alighted from the LRT at Fajar station (back from work at 11pm), my breathing was slightly affected by the haze and I felt almost weak. I grabbed a little piece of clothing from my shawl and covered my nose and mouth. It was already 11 at night! Who would be seeing me covered that way anyway? 

And the next day (which was yesterday), I felt that it is not a bad idea to cover my nose and mouth using my shawl. So I did just that while making my way to work.... And back from work.

And Here's the story.. Dad sent Sofie and I to work earlier today. Since I started half an hour later than Sofie's shift, we sent her first. When I went down, dad and Sofie was already in the cab. So this was the conversation that took place between dad and myself (not exactly but somewhere there):

Dad: Work allows you to wear like that?

Me: uhmm? Donno.. Maybe, maybe not.

Dad: You wanna change can, but don't be too fanatic. We follow Imam Syafiee, just simple rules. 

Me: *taken aback by what my dad said! Couldn't believe that my intention to cover my nose and mouth from the haze made my dad pointed out things he doesn't have to! I couldn't help it but my tears couldn't stop flowing.*

After We dropped Sofie off, it doesn't stop there...

Dad: Uhhh... It's good that you wanna change.. But until to the extend that I couldn't recognize you? I dowan one day mama and papa cannot recognize our own daughter.. 

*My dried face had to be all wet again*

But what hit me real bad was when dad said this line.

"If that's the case, I dowan you to change. I prefer the old you."

ASTAGHFIRULLAH HAL'AZIM. I was at the verge of bursting out crying but I let my tears flow freely. Only Allah SWT knows how I felt at that point of time. All this time I thought my family would be happy for my change. That my parents would be happy for me. Especially my dad. All along I was doing what that was commanded by my Lord, the Al-Mighty, the Al-Knowing, happily and freely and thinking that my parents are at ease of my actions. 

I alighted from dad's cab still crying, reaching work with my eyes visible full of tears. Sufyian was the only one seen on the shop floor and behind the counters so I had to approach him to get my bag checked before entering the store room. While checking my bag, he looked into my eyes and asked me if I was okay. I assured him that I was but he insisted and asked me again to reassure. 

I gave him an unconvincing nod and headed towards the store room. I couldn't help it but to burst out of tears, with confidence assuming that the store room was empty. But Sophie (Store Manager) & Rafie (Assistant Store Manager) was inside. Sophie got up, panicked, and asked what happened. 

The day passed by in a daze and I ended my shift with the big guy Sebastian. Geddit? Okay not. Lol (Sufyian's family name is Sebastian and he is a big build guy. Okayyyyyyyyyy.) 

Initially wanted to break my fast while dining with the best friend. But I was still upset and felt a little unwell so I decided to head home straight after work. Sufyian wanted to drop in Uni Qlo so we went in to look around and left for home. We chatted in the train on our way home and that's where I got to know him better. A big guy with a soft-spot. 

Since he doesn't have to take the LRT, my journey home alone was yet another daze. I was whatsapp-ing my baby sister and my soul sister. I'm such an emotional and sensitive person. I can never talk or text without crying when I'm emotionally hurt or mentally exhausted. 

So I was too engrossed in sharing with them how my Friday went, I missed my stop and only realized it 3 stations after! Hahaha. Subhaan'Allah. 

Took the train via Petir, passed by Fajar and I alighted at Senja! Hehe. I was upset at that point of time :(

But overall, May Allah increase my family in knowledge. Ameen.

May Allah ease all out affairs. Ameen.

May Allah protect us all from harm, hurt and danger. Ameen! 

May Allah reward my sisters in Islam with good for being there for me. Ameen!

Allahuma Ameen!

Wassalam.

Marlie.

MIRACLE OF ABLUTION.

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatu.

Work has been manageable so far... But in this post I am gonna talk about the incident I had while I was in the toilet during my shift. I was fasting yesterday and it was time to break-fast hence after breaking my fast with mineral water and some biscuits, I head to the toilet to have my ablution (wudhu') done for Maghrib prayer. While performing the ablution, I always have to split places to get it done.

First, the cleansing of my face to my arms/elbows are done on the basin of the sink itself. (Yes, I've to remove my hijab pins and the hijab itself so water could get to my faces, forehead and ears.) Second, to ensure that water gets to my feet, I went into the last cubicle which has a pipe installed. I took the pipe and started rinsing my feet one at a time.

Once I was done with the last part of ablution, I opened the swinging door of the cubicle but was unaware of the position of my left foot at that time so the sharp edge of the door hit my left foot and left a cut. It was a stringing pain but I ignored it and let it be.

I wore back my socks when I reached the store room to my shop and totally forgot about the cut until I ended my shift even after I reached home! I could even lay down on my mom's bed watching tv beside her. When it finally hit me, I quickly took a close look at my left foot. It was incredible! Like as if I din hurt or injure my foot. There wasn't any visible mark or wound at that point of time! Subhaan'Allah. The power of ablution, and Allah's will. Ma Shaa Allah :)

Wassalam.

JESUS.

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatu.

Before you judge the header of this entry, just hold on to your thoughts first. Hehe.

Work has been manageable, Alhamdulillah, with wonderful colleagues who are very patient and willing to guide me and correct my mistakes. Was scheduled at few other outlets as there was an issue with the official opening of the new outlet, JEM (Jurong East Mall), which is where I was supposed to be. So they put me at jCube, Wisma and CityLink. But I've gained experience and feel on how other outlets manage their sales and customers. It's really overwhelming looking at the huge difference in the crowd from one outlet to another.

So JEM finally had their delayed opening on the 15th of June 2013, Saturday. I was scheduled as 11am to 4pm, but my Store Manager (SM) wants me to come as 9am to 2pm to help out with kits. She knows I love doing kits! Hehe. So first day, Elissa was there. She's the Regional Manager for Smiggle, and I get to meet the Visual Merchandise Manager for Singapore Smiggle as well, Fadilah. Such a small and cute lady. Petite. 

Morning was with Sophie (SM) and Sufyian. After Sufyian had left the shop when he's done with his shift, an angmoh lady in her late 40s / early 50s approached me at the counter to make payment. I greeted her with a friendly hi accompanied by a smile. She just smiled back. But while I was scanning her items into the POS system, she casually asked "How are you?". I answered in the most energetic "Fine thank you!" again with a smile. After I was done with packing her items and returned her change, she leaned forward, so I did the same thing. But to my surprised, she started babbling on something that I couldn't really catch but I managed to catch her last line.......... "Jesus is still alive." And she just stated at me!

I was still trying to catch on what she was babbling on the first few words, but I gave up and just said bye to her, she just smiled and left. I don't have any clue to what her intention was, but yes. That was very awkward and weird. I jut shrugged it off and resume my work.

Hmmm. May Allah protect me from hurt and harm and ease all my affairs. Ameen!

Wallahu A'lam.

Wassalam.

DREAM.

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatu lovelies!

Today I'm gonna talk about what (or who specifically) I've been dreaming about lately.

The following dreams was on the night of 9th June 2013, Sunday, where I woke up to the morning of 10th June 2013, Monday.

(Dream 1: Kak Ina)

Dreamt of bumping into Kakak Sabarina at the "airport" as she was waiting for her departure. She was gonna get herself involved in the journey to the Holy Land to perform Umrah (pilgrimage). She was so excited that she just greeted us randomly and excitement was written all over her face hehe Ma Shaa Allah..

May Allah protect her and her loved ones and accept her repentance and all her ibadah/amalan while performing her umrah. Allahuma Ameen!

(Dream 2: Stranger - H look-alike)

So I had the strangest dream ever! (May Allah guide me to His right path and forgive me for my wrongdoings and shortcomings. Ameen.) 

I dreamt of a stranger. And the strangest thing is not that, because how many times have we randomly dream of so many random strangers and just let it pass just like that? Thinking it was just a dream? But not for this one.

This stranger has the exact same personality and characteristics as my friend, lets just call him H1. (And lets name the stranger H2.) So H2 was exactly like H1. In terms of appearance, stubbornness, cheekiness, willingness and achievement! Subhaan'Allah. H2 was behaving very creepily in my dream, stalking and everything, but I wasn't the least bit afraid of his actions and behaviors. I was extremely, extremely irritated and annoyed by his constant perseverance instead of being touched by it. 

But at one point of time, I almost gave up and just let him be. I almost, ALMOST felt for what he was doing. Lol. But I was saved, by .............

REALITY.

Hehe woke up to another day, Alhamdulillah but I have been thinking about the meaning behind this dream up till today... It doesn't bother me in a sense but in a way, I can't help it just that the dream kept coming to me.. May Allah show me, guide me and ease my affairs! Allahuma Ameen!

This dream was on the night of 10th June 2013, Monday, where I woke up to the morning of 11th June 2013, Tuesday.

(Dream 3: Izzatie - wedding ceremony)

And finally........ 

So I was at this wedding ceremony.. I saw Izzatie (couldn't really see her baby bump maybe because I wasn't conscious about her pregnancy in my dream lol) with her husband... But what startled me was that her husband was Hariz instead of her reality husband, Ridzuan. Lol. 

My dreams just get weirder and weirder. It's like the more tired I am, the more weird it gets. But Alhamdulillah for weird dreams. Hehe. 

Just to share even tho it's something small. At least one day, I will remember some of the things in my life as I get older... :')

Wassalam.

KEEP CALM AND PREPARE FOR RAMADHAN.

GARDENS BY THE BAY.

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatu lovelies!

Had an impromptu outing with my paternal relatives to Gardens by the Bay.

Initially we only planned to go to a relative's wedding over at Tampines! But it turns out that my aunt received a couple of free tickets to the GBTB from her friends! So we took that very opportunity to use up those tickets. Hehe.

Here are the beautiful photos taken while exploring the garden during our visit there. Enjoy!

Wassalam.

BLESSINGS TWICE IN A DAY.

Hehe Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatu again dearies!

I've just settled myself in bed after prayers back home from work. And I actually left home feeling slightly depressed and so not looking forward to work earlier. I honestly even thought of quitting the job. It's not about the people, it's not about the workload, and its definitely not about the customers too! But surprisingly, it's just me.

My new workplace requires me to be bubbly, cheerful, talkative (especially the connection and interaction with customers), attentive, and definitely loud. I can be all that. In fact, I WAS. But that's the problem! Ever since I've migrated myself closer to The Al-Mighty, I've become more quiet (in a way that I speak with manners and lower my voice, still bubbly and cheerful though) so when I'm required to be loud, or when anyone pointed that out, I'll just get slightly uncomfortable and I'll start to think negative. Like, "Is this job really for me?", or "Gosh I'm not gonna make it...", or even "I'll just quit. I never signed up for this anyways.".

But Ma Shaa Allah. Today, being my 5th day with the new workplace (but my 2nd day at a different outlet) actually brings out my potential in serving and connect much more with the customers! I am so happy with my performance today and I am so thankful to Allah SWT! Alhamdulillah. He has always rescued me, answered my prayers and ease my affair, Subhanallah!

Even a male colleague at this outlet complimented me..

A: How long have you been with this company?

Me: This is only my 5th day....

A: Really? But you pick up things quite fast.....

Me: Huh really? Maybe because I have retail experience but I still think I'm slow in a lot of areas....

A: No la, for only the 5th day I think you pick up things very fast I see you do all the stuff...

Ma Shaa Allah, Alhamdulillah! Hehe May Allah continue to ease my affairs, at work, outside of work, in school, and everywhere else, In Shaa Allah! 

Allahuma Ameen.

Wassalam.

SEMESTER 2.

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatu dear readers.

Alhamdulillah. As most of the students should've gotten their results by now, I'm one of the happiest and most grateful ones that made it through my second semester! I din think I could've made it. But Alhamdulillah, no amount of appreciation and gratefulness can describe how happy I was (and still am!)... Ma Shaa Allah. Allah SWT definitely heard my prayers and answered them. 

Now.... I'm trying not to let my new semester and the new modules bring my mood down for my well-deserved holiday! (But sometimes I just can't help it but to feel depress and worried all over again.) I'll try to convince myself that Allah knows what's best for me and leave it to Him. 

May Allah ease all my affairs as He knows best. Allahuma Ameen!

Wassalam.

MUSLIMAH CLOTHINGS SHOPPING.

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatu.

Alhamdulillah. I've made a short trip to Malay village on the Saturday just few days back (18th May 2013) with the soul sister to do some necessary shopping for muslimah clothings and needs. It is the most unexpected and happening day of my life. Never did I expect to be over-excited and overwhelmed by the idea of shopping for muslimah clothings. So we headed straight to Pasar Geylang (Geylang Wet Market) first to fill our empty stomach with chicken rice! Alhamdulillah, the chicken rice was fulfilling and satisfying. Hehe. 

After which we made our way around the market to get some shawls/hijab first. Surprisingly, we managed to grab a few at a very cheap price! Alhamdulillah! Few more things that we purchased while making our roundings at the market were pins, brooches and skirts, before making our way into Joo Chiat Complex! There, we came across cheap and portable prayer sets and we got a few! 

After purchasing one more shawl/hijab from Joo Chiat, we finally decided we've shopped enough for that day. Not until we stopped by Singapore Posts (beside Paya Lebar MRT station) for Gongcha! We came across a push cart that sells socks, stockings, foot cover etc. I had socks/stockings in my list hence, bought ours at 3 for $5 (each of us bought 3 pairs, hehe)! And it's of good and soft material! Totally worth the buy! 

We had a deep and meaningful conversation, a real catch-up and Alhamdulillah, how can I ever be happier than to have a soul sister like her? The Al-Mighty made us where we can understand each other so well, Ma Shaa Allah. I am happy to have her. We never expected or spotted any signs from the first day we met in our secondary school, who would've figured that we would be soul sisters? 

May Allah guide her His path and make it easy for her, Allahuma Ameen. 

I am looking forward to another day of shopping for muslimah clothings with the soul sister again, In Shaa Allah this time, it is going to be much more special. (Only both of us and the Al-Mighty knows why issit gonna be special, Subhanallah. Hehe).

Wassalam.

A POLISHED PEARL RETURNED TO ITS SHELL.

Well Assalamualaikum my dear readers.

Alhamdulillah, I have mastered more than enough courage to don the hijab as commanded by my Lord. It all started with my curiosity, envying and sharing of friends' happiness after hearing them change to become a better muslimah. Besides, I have this amazing close friend who always understands how I feel and whatever situation I went through, and vice versa. It was like as if we were soul sisters. One day we had a long catch up and stumbled upon the topic of headscarf, repent and sin. We had a hearty talk during one of the fasting days - Ramadhan - over our break of fasting. We talked about how our schoolmates have changed and don the headscarf. Since then, we have been talking about it and being so supportive of each other's intention to change and don the headscarf soon(or one day, In Shaa Allah.)

I slowly started to watch clips related to this pure religion on its facts, halal & haraam, and more (although its just video clips), which also points to Facebook playing a huge role in this journey. My Facebook timeline is full of clips and thoughts shared by my Muslim brothers & sisters around the world! I am always so self-conscious when it comes to religion/Islamic matters. Therefore, each time I came across a status update or shared video clips regarding the religion, I felt guilty for not doing or practicing what that was required of every servant of the Al-Mighty. I felt as low as an earthworm's bellybutton! 

But slowly I practiced doing the things that could smoothen my days ahead such as reciting supplications for the different kind of specific protection. However, doing this is not enough. I know I MUST practice and perform my salaah to be protected from any forms of harm and hurt, but I was that one of the majority who was lazy to get up on her feet and perform salaah and dhikiir. Always full of excuses such as "My intention is there... It still counts right?" "I'll do it tomorrow, or whenever I'm ready and sincere." "I will do it when I taubat fully, In Shaa Allah." and the list of excuses goes on.. (Astaghfirullah hal'azim.)

Until one day, I've decided to wear hijab (nope, I haven't put it on at that point of time when I've decided to wear, it was just a hearty decision.) so as I was (and still am) working in a fashion industry, I asked my in-charge if the Muslim staffs in the shop floor are allowed to put on Muslim headscarf while at work. My in-charge wasn't 100% sure if we are allowed but she somehow thinks that the management doesn't allow. Being a Muslim sister herself, she took the initiative to clarify with our Operations Manager, a Roman-Catholic lady. And being in a position that does not allow her to have a say in this, she went to the extent to clarify this matter with the HR. 

Well, as much as most of you can roughly predict the outcome of the response, I could've predicted it too. The HR mentioned that we are not allowed to wear Muslim headscarf in the shop floor during working hours. HOWEVER, the staffs are allowed to wear the Muslim headscarf to work but to have them removed during working hours and put them back on after they are done with their shifts. 

Wait. WHAT? I was confused as much as the company's way of thinking. I wasn't mad about it though. But I knew I had made up my mind the moment I received their reply. I've decided to quit. Doesn't matter if I'm able to find another part-time job or not to support myself while still studying. Because I have my lord. I have Allah. That was the first time, FIRST TIME I ever made a vast decision for Allah's sake without thinking. Subhanallah. I wasn't upset either. Neither was I worrying over what if I am not able to get myself employed. 

Although I made that decision instantly, I did not immediately turn into a new leaf or don the headscarf. It took me quite some time as I was in the midst of having my exams and I wasn't able to think well. But I try to make a habit to perform my salaah and correct my mistakes (up till today, I am still trying to correct my mistakes while performing my salaah.) I thought I was going through a lot of pressure but I felt so calm and relief each time I was confused because I know, Allah will be with me during my exams, just like how I was (and still am, In Shaa Allah) with Him during every salaah and supplications. 

During this short period of practicing and attempting to improve myself, no doubt that there was a lot of cobaan (tests) and shaytaan's whispers that came in so many different forms. One simple form is gossiping. Always after I'm done gossiping, I feel like I might as well tear or cut my tongue off. May Allah forgive me for I have sinned. Another form would be buying of clothes. There comes a time when I came across clothings that invite fitnah such as short dresses, short skirts and all other body-hugging clothes. I would get so tempted to buy them and wear it! And always think that I will repent soon, so it doesn't matter, I can always ask for forgiveness. Astaghfirullah. But until one day, I managed to shun shaytaan's whisperings and avoid myself from buying them by recalling this one powerful sentence. 

"When you leave/give up something you love or desire for the sake of Allah, He will present you or replace it with something so much BETTER." Ma Shaa Allah, Subhanallah. Immediately, I left the scene and thoughts of getting them. Although until today I still have the urge to buy those things that will invite fitnah. I will always remember this one sentence which will save myself from sinning. Alhamdulillah.

But Allah SWT answered my prayer. I was notified by this other management and my sister who is currently working there that they are having an opening recruitment for the upcoming new outlet. Other than being allowed to wear the Muslim headscarf, the benefits was so much better than a full-timer's benefit at my current workplace, Ma Shaa Allah. I wasn't expecting or putting high hopes on this opportunity but if my rezeki and blessings is there, then that environment it shall be... So I applied and to make the story short (than it already is, lol.), I was short-listed and was required to head down to one of the outlets for an interview with the Store Manager (SM). And coincidentally, the my sister knows the SM although they does not work in the same outlet. Hence my sister help me to put in good words, Alhamdulillah. But wait! Don't be too quick to judge on me having an unfair or bias chance into getting the job (this is not the intention of this post anyway...) but during the interview (13th May 2013), the SM also mention that there were a lot of other applicants hence, she will contact the HR again and she wished me good luck (just to clear some doubts whether this SM is biased just because she is my sister's friend/colleague.)

Anyways, right after I stepped out of the outlet, I received a message from the SM, requiring me to get back into the store to discuss about my availability as she contacted the HR immediately when our interview ended. Alhamdulillah. 

I went to work the next day (14th May 2013), and felt I've lose interest in the job maybe because I was uncovered all over again. 

But in the evening, my Operations Manager, the Roman Catholic lady, came down to our store to settle some stuff and she approached me to regard this matter. She said she understands the Muslims needs and requirements to cover ourselves, our aurat (skins and private parts) but she feels that it's not right to lose staffs because of this. She sounded upset it was almost like I wanted to hug her because as much as she wanted to do something about it, we both know the decision does not lies with her. She talked to the HR and also tries to convince them that it is not a fashion purpose, it's a religious purpose. She also mentioned that they do not understand the religion by saying that "They do not sin in God's eyes by not wearing the headscarf while at work right." She stopped me from commenting or arguing or even say a word and let her finish. She said she understands how I feel about this. She will try her best again to talk to the HR and the Brand Manager even, and see if she can get anything out of it. THEN she asked, whether I've already started looking for other jobs or not. I said yes and told her all about it. 

She said since its a better pay, why should she stop me from leaving. And she was very supportive about my decision, in leaving and also the commitment to put on the headscarf - hijab as we call it. That she will try her best to convince the upper management although I've made the decision to leave and this could also be for the future muslimahs the company intending to hire.. It was a very touching catch up and conversation I had with her and I am grateful for her effort. 

Sidetrack a bit. We chatted a while more about religious matters and she mentioned that she is a religious lady as well. She mentioned that she have knowledge on other religion not only on Roman Catholics and Islam because she loves to read up and follow up on religious documentaries. 

Hehe Alhamdulillah. I have received Hidayah and guidance from the Al-Mighty to be in the righteous path and may Allah forgive my past, present and future sins. I am much more happier where I am today than where I was before. Although this is just a beginning, I've a lot more to learnt and practice to become a better Muslimah, In Shaa Allah. I am extremely happy, grateful and blessed to have the support coming from my family, my best friend, my girlfriends and not forgetting my soul sister. Now that I have don the hijab, I will continue praying to Allah to strengthen my imaan and also give Hidayah to all the women in my life; my mother, sisters, best friend, girlfriend and not forgetting my soul sister too for even giving me the motivation and great support from the start! Alhamdulillah, May Allah reward them all with good, Allahuma Ameen.

I hope this will benefit other muslimahs and sisters who are having a hard time running away from shaytaan's whispers. May Allah guide you all, my dearest sisters of Islam. To the right path and become a better Muslimah. I love them all for the sake of Allah. 

Wassalam.